Post by calla juniper thorn on Jan 16, 2010 19:12:10 GMT -8
and everything i fell for you
i wrote down on one piece of paper
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it's a bit weird to have a place that is my own. my own private little world right here in my lap. *sighs* i love my kane dearly. i really do. i think i'd die just for him. but, i don't know. i always find myself going off and having affairs with so many other men. whether faery or not. i know it's wrong, but what can i really do? and of course, i can't lie to kane. it's..impossible, really. i guess i can just be happy that i've been lucky far enough for kane to be so naive about the affairs i have. of course, he knows of the affairs with the sweet tooth pandora. but, he is something i need. and though i must share him with other faeries, i am very fond of him.
speaking of panda. he is just so adorable. i love him, really. though, in what way, i'm not sure. i can see him as a good friend. maybe even a best friend. he's good company, nice to have someone around where i can speak and not really have to worry about filtering my words or being cautious of what i say. and unlike most of the other faeries, i don't have to beat panda just for the fun or pleasure of it. my heart may be wrapped in ice, but i still know how to be civil and sane.
back to my darling kane. i can still remember the day i met him and fell in love with the unseelie king. i had started to see the faery world around me in a new way, because of what happened to my mother. i had to leave the seelie court, i just felt they were to surreal and being in the unseelie court, i find that i really see the world for what it truly is. it's not all happiness and sunshine.
...*sighs* oh kane. you've done so much for me. i wish i could be completely faithful to you. but i hope you know how much i truly do love you. you are my soul mate. my other half.
i must stop writing now. i can hear foot steps approaching. until next time...
p.s.
i wonder if panda ever saw my true form, if he'd still want me?
xoxo, calla juniper.
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