Post by Faylinn Marie Freemark on Feb 4, 2010 18:03:45 GMT -8
Dear Diary,
Of all the things that have happened recently. That sentence still never fails to make me feel young again. Like I'm still a little girl...like I'm still human. Well I guess I can't even say that. I was never human, not really. I just thought I was, it was all a lie. Everything. Anna was never my mother, not that she was their much. Grammy she's nothing. Theirs still one person I can't stand to think I never had any part in her. Piper. I can't believe she's not my sister. It hurts. Inside it still feels like every breath is piercing my lungs. I'm afraid to open my mouth. Afraid of the sounds that will come out.[/font][/size][/u]
Still it's been two months since I moved here to Nevermore. It feels like ages more though. Being alone, time seems to go slower. I wonder why that is. I'm starting to become lonely though. Finally growing sick of my own company. After Stephan showed me what I really am though, told me the truth. I'm afraid to walk out my own door, scared of what will be their. A vampire, a werewolf, or worse someone, maybe I should say something? Either way, something that's like me?
Still I don't think I can keep it up much longer. Being mute, never speaking or making noise. I'm pretty sure the neighbors think I've died. I haven't been out of the house in days. I miss people, but I'm scared. I don't like being scared. For now I think I've convinced myself otherwise. But tomorrow...defiantly tomorrow. I will go into the city! I will leave this place! I mean I can't hide forever can I?
Goodnight Diary,
-Faylinn[/center][/blockquote][/color][/font][/size]